Sometimes... You just need a reminder!
It's has been a pretty hard time for me. So many things to deal with, having to crack my soul open (I know, that sounds weird, one day I'll get into details but it's too soon to talk about it now), decisions, big messes, work that most people don't consider work but that means a lot to me (I'm talking about blogs and YouTube and such... I make no money out of it and I don't have many people reading what I write or watching my videos, but for some reason these things make me happy and I wanna keep up with them - even though pretty much everyone else tells me they're pointless and that I should just stop. Which I won't!), plans that never come true, travelling plans which I have no money for and have no idea of how to get some, no job...
EVERYTHING is a mess!! But... I feel refreshed today!!
Why?? Because I just watched one of my favorite movies for the 10th time this week: The Clique.
And you know what?? Massie Block (even though she can be pretty mean) is the bomb.com and there is somethings she gets right: you gotta stand up for yourself, life as yourself and make a place for yourself!
And also, you gotta live day by day, do and say what you feel right now, tomorrow is a new day and even though you should plan some stuff ahead (like the outfit you'll wear the next day, per example...), you should never stress too much about tomorrow because, tbh, you can't control it!!
So yeah, I'm still freaking out because I'm not sure how I'm gonna go to the UK and to Paris in the same month with no money, yeah I still don't have a freaking way to make money, I still don't know what to do to settle some crazy confusions that just came up with people I really like, I still feel like crap because I think that by moving away I'll leave my dad alone, I still don't know if I'll be able to live away from home and survive, I still don't make money out of the things I love to do and people still tell me to stop doing them...
But you know what? Every time an opportunity presents itself so I can solve one (or more) of these issues, I'll take it. And I'll do my best to get these chances and use them the best I can.
But until then... I'll also do my best no to stress about them.
Because each day is a day, and you don't know what will happen!! My dad could get a new GF tomorrow and start having more concerts, I could be called for the perfect job in three days and I can start making money out of my blogs or YouTube or whatever else I love in a month!!
You never know!!
So it's time to take a turn, cross the road and see what's there.
And I'll take some of Massie's attitude with me (not the mean part, promise!), because she gives me strength!
And that's what I need right now.
"Your mind will answer most questions if yo learn to relax and wait for the answer." - William S.Burroughs
Hearts Hugs and Kisses